It's amazing how much can change in just a few days. I am so lucky to have an amazing friend in my life who listened, gave advice, mediated, and fixed everything! I don't know what I'm going to do without her all summer! Thank you for everything my dear!!
And...this song is pretty great.
Saturday, April 9, 2011
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Music is what feelings sound like
Music is the most amazing thing ever. There is always a song to fit each different mood, or help you express a feeling, or to help you cheer up. In the past 24 hours I have gone through pretty much every emotion...typical girl right? But music has definitely helped me through it.
It all started with John Mayer's Slow Dancing in a Burning Room. Everyone has probably felt like this at some point. Just sitting there, trying to act like nothing is wrong... while in reality it feels like the world is crumbling or "burning" around you. It's hard! Some things change and you can't help it no matter how hard you try. But change can be good. I always believed "if it's not broken, don't fix it" but that isn't true. Sometimes you have to break something in order to make it better. Why use something that only kind of works if you can fix it and make it even better? Feeling like your world is burning and you have no control sucks. But luckily these feelings typically only last a little while and then you can be reborn out of the ashes just like a Phoenix. yes that is definitely a Harry Potter reference.
Then came along Lady A with Need You Now. This song gets to me. Because everyone knows what it's like to miss someone. Whether it is an ex or not, there is always a time when you really miss a certain person. I heard this in the car on the way to work and it tugged at my heart strings. Missing someone is the worst. Because a lot of the time there isn't anything you can do about it at the exact moment that you start to miss them. You have to just sit and wait until the time finally comes when you can see each other. And I know this song is about being drunk and missing an ex, but the concept still applies to most people.
And the low point. What do you want by Jerrod Neimann. This song is about an ex as well, but if you take out that whole aspect of it, anyone can relate to it. Sometimes it's easy to get frazzled and overwhelmed and all you want to do is say, "WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME?!" It doesn't matter who it's to. Whether it's to the world, parents, a boyfriend, boss, teacher, coach, or even just a stranger who pushes your buttons. If I'm at the end of my rope, these are typically the last words said before I have pretty much given up. This phrase is vulnerable and exasperated and usually happens when you really just need an answer about what to do. Emotional rock bottom is the hardest place to be because it feels like you have no control over anything...but from there the only place to go is up.
Now the best song of them all. John Hiatt - Have a little faith in me. This song is amazing. If you haven't heard it. GO LISTEN NOW!!(It's in my little play list thing!) This song could be about God or about a boyfriend. Either way you look at it, it is amazing. Because of my situation currently I'm going to go with both of these options because I have to have faith in God and faith in my relationship. My favorite line is "You see time, time is our friend cause for us there is no end. And all you gotta do, is have a little faith in me." Love is eternal. There isn't an end, so we just have to have faith that everything is going to work out how it is supposed to. But every action in life is based off of fear or love. Love is the driving force in my life. Maybe that's a cheesy girl thing to say but it is. Having faith in love and those around you who truly love and care about you is all a person can do. We need those people in our lives to lift us up when we do hit rock bottom. So have a little faith...in God, in love, in a person, or simply in yourself.
It all started with John Mayer's Slow Dancing in a Burning Room. Everyone has probably felt like this at some point. Just sitting there, trying to act like nothing is wrong... while in reality it feels like the world is crumbling or "burning" around you. It's hard! Some things change and you can't help it no matter how hard you try. But change can be good. I always believed "if it's not broken, don't fix it" but that isn't true. Sometimes you have to break something in order to make it better. Why use something that only kind of works if you can fix it and make it even better? Feeling like your world is burning and you have no control sucks. But luckily these feelings typically only last a little while and then you can be reborn out of the ashes just like a Phoenix. yes that is definitely a Harry Potter reference.
Then came along Lady A with Need You Now. This song gets to me. Because everyone knows what it's like to miss someone. Whether it is an ex or not, there is always a time when you really miss a certain person. I heard this in the car on the way to work and it tugged at my heart strings. Missing someone is the worst. Because a lot of the time there isn't anything you can do about it at the exact moment that you start to miss them. You have to just sit and wait until the time finally comes when you can see each other. And I know this song is about being drunk and missing an ex, but the concept still applies to most people.
And the low point. What do you want by Jerrod Neimann. This song is about an ex as well, but if you take out that whole aspect of it, anyone can relate to it. Sometimes it's easy to get frazzled and overwhelmed and all you want to do is say, "WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME?!" It doesn't matter who it's to. Whether it's to the world, parents, a boyfriend, boss, teacher, coach, or even just a stranger who pushes your buttons. If I'm at the end of my rope, these are typically the last words said before I have pretty much given up. This phrase is vulnerable and exasperated and usually happens when you really just need an answer about what to do. Emotional rock bottom is the hardest place to be because it feels like you have no control over anything...but from there the only place to go is up.
Now the best song of them all. John Hiatt - Have a little faith in me. This song is amazing. If you haven't heard it. GO LISTEN NOW!!(It's in my little play list thing!) This song could be about God or about a boyfriend. Either way you look at it, it is amazing. Because of my situation currently I'm going to go with both of these options because I have to have faith in God and faith in my relationship. My favorite line is "You see time, time is our friend cause for us there is no end. And all you gotta do, is have a little faith in me." Love is eternal. There isn't an end, so we just have to have faith that everything is going to work out how it is supposed to. But every action in life is based off of fear or love. Love is the driving force in my life. Maybe that's a cheesy girl thing to say but it is. Having faith in love and those around you who truly love and care about you is all a person can do. We need those people in our lives to lift us up when we do hit rock bottom. So have a little faith...in God, in love, in a person, or simply in yourself.
Saturday, April 2, 2011
Domestically Challenged
Especially in Utah, moms are supposed to be the best cooks. Dinners, treats, after school snacks...they are supposed to do it all. My mom wasn't like this. I came from a family where my mom works all the time and my dad has always made dinner. So I never really learned how to do the whole "homemaker" thing. My poor future husband had better be ok with eating some experimental concoctions while I figure it all out. BUT oddly enough I love to bake when I'm stressed. Muffins and cupcakes in particular for some weird reason. I also have been trying to make dinners from scratch more...ok so we've only made one dinner...but it's a start!! Sometimes I like to try new things other than the typical cupcakes, cookies, poppy seed or blueberry muffins, brownies, etc. So here are a few of my creative attempts:
These were sooooo good! I love Oreos and Marshmallows, so this was just combining them into one amazing cupcake. I wasn't able to put two oreos in mine though because this person used a Texas size muffin tin. And it was around Halloween so I used the oreos with the orange filling to make them more festive. They were delicious!!
Dee and I get mexican way more than anyone should. So when we decided to make dinner, of course we went with chicken enchiladas. They were yummy! But I tweaked the recipe a little bit because we forgot to get stuff at the store, it was fine though. It was still a good dinner. They took forever though. Hopefully as I start cooking more, it goes faster...because it was a little ridiculous.
These were good too!! And i promise I'm not just bias...well hopefully not. But I got the idea off of One Tree Hill oddly enough. And I LOVE pistachios so it sounded interesting! No one had even heard of the idea, so I had to try. They had a sweet and salty combo that was soooo yummy...but that's why I like kettle corn. These muffins were unique and different but turned out pretty well! Not so much a sweet dessertish thing, but more of just a snack.
So on Saturday Abby and I decided that we were going to make banana bread using the brown bananas that were lying around. I had never made banana bread before so we decided to try it out! Half way through we decided to diverge from the recipe and add nuts. But the only nuts that they had were pecans (i'm pretty sure you're supposed to use walnuts or something) but it was all we had. And not only that but they were slightly past their "best if sold by" date...only by like 2 years! They tasted fine though. So Abby decided she was going to caramelize them. Had she done this before? Nope! It was just an adventure all around. The nuts got a little burt so we added water and brown sugar and made a sort of sauce along with them. We mixed it all together and threw it in the oven...then came the waiting. We waited and waited until finally it was done. And then we had to wait for it to cool, so of course we sat and watched the pan cool because we were so excited! But oh.my.goodness. it was the best banana bread ever! The nuts added a little somethin somethin and it was moist and just yummy! We were pretty proud of our baking adventure!
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| Fluffer Oreo Cupcakes |
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| Delicious Banana Pecan Bread |
My next adventure is hopefully going to be Chai muffins. So we'll see how that goes. They'll probably end up on here.
But until then just chocolate chip cookies for my cute boyfriend. If anyone has good recipes that are fun, yummy, and maybe on the easier side just let me know!!
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Procrastination.
So I have a serious problem with procrastination. It's bad. If there is a paper due on Monday morning, I never start it until 8pm Sunday night at the earliest. If it's due in the afternoon I typically write it the day it's due. AND IT DOESN'T MATTER HOW LONG THEY ARE!! 2 pages...8 pages...always last minute. I can never find the motivation to get them done unless it's total crunch time. And as much as it stresses me out, I do much better on them! I got 3 papers back today. Two of them were written the night before and scored 100% on both. The other was a 7 page midterm that I was really nervous about because I started it the night before. But because it wasn't due until 4 the next day, I couldn't finish it. So I finished the midterm (which was a HUGE part of my grade) 30 minutes before it was due and got a 99% on it. With results like this why on earth would I not put it off??
It's more than papers though. If I go home before going to Dee's and say I have to shower before going back over there, he has learned that doddling is inevitable. Things just distract me too easily...facebook, listening to music, eating, catching up on a missed show, or now blogging. It's not that I try to be late! Other things just get in the way of what needs to be done and help feed the procrastination issue. The whole ADD thing probably doesn't help either but that's a different story.
Another thing. I LOATHE putting laundry away. Cleaning clothes? Fine. Folding them? Fine. Hanging them up or putting them in the dresser? KILL ME NOW! No idea what the deal is, but it's awful. Right now I have 7 laundry baskets of clean clothes that have to be put in their proper place. And what am I doing? Blogging about it.
It seems like a time always comes along when stuff HAS to be done. So why not just wait until that point hits? People typically don't fill up their car until the gas light turns on, don't buy food if they haven't run out, or don't do homework that isn't due for another couple days. It's okay waiting until the last minute, as long as stuff gets done when it absolutely needs to.
But on the flip side, I am very spontaneous and do most things without thinking. If there is something I really want to buy...hello impulse purchase. Or doing something that seems fun, it almost always happens. The song "Why Wait" by Rascal Flatts is one of my favorites because it is all about just doing something that feels right and figuring out the rest later. If I ever think "I wonder what would happen if..." or "I really want to..." most of the time those things happen. Don't worry, I'm still smart about it and do put a little bit of thought into serious consequences. But it is just a more fun way to live.
So the conclusion here is: Not fun things should be put off for as long as possible. And fun or random things should just happen...because whether it turns out good or bad, there's probably an interesting story and a lasting memory that can come out of it.
Sorry this turned out to be a novel.
It's more than papers though. If I go home before going to Dee's and say I have to shower before going back over there, he has learned that doddling is inevitable. Things just distract me too easily...facebook, listening to music, eating, catching up on a missed show, or now blogging. It's not that I try to be late! Other things just get in the way of what needs to be done and help feed the procrastination issue. The whole ADD thing probably doesn't help either but that's a different story.
Another thing. I LOATHE putting laundry away. Cleaning clothes? Fine. Folding them? Fine. Hanging them up or putting them in the dresser? KILL ME NOW! No idea what the deal is, but it's awful. Right now I have 7 laundry baskets of clean clothes that have to be put in their proper place. And what am I doing? Blogging about it.
It seems like a time always comes along when stuff HAS to be done. So why not just wait until that point hits? People typically don't fill up their car until the gas light turns on, don't buy food if they haven't run out, or don't do homework that isn't due for another couple days. It's okay waiting until the last minute, as long as stuff gets done when it absolutely needs to.
But on the flip side, I am very spontaneous and do most things without thinking. If there is something I really want to buy...hello impulse purchase. Or doing something that seems fun, it almost always happens. The song "Why Wait" by Rascal Flatts is one of my favorites because it is all about just doing something that feels right and figuring out the rest later. If I ever think "I wonder what would happen if..." or "I really want to..." most of the time those things happen. Don't worry, I'm still smart about it and do put a little bit of thought into serious consequences. But it is just a more fun way to live.
So the conclusion here is: Not fun things should be put off for as long as possible. And fun or random things should just happen...because whether it turns out good or bad, there's probably an interesting story and a lasting memory that can come out of it.
Sorry this turned out to be a novel.
Monday, March 28, 2011
Where'd you go? I miss you so. Seems like it's been forever since you've been gone.
So here are some things I love about summer:
- Tan lines - Being tan is my favorite!! Everything is better when you've got a little color, and then I never feel like I have to wear make up. Win win!
- Boating - Whether with family or friends (or both) boating is so much fun! I could just sit on the boat and not move all day. Just driving around, tubing, attempting to wakeboard, or just sitting as it rocks with the waves. Being on a boat listening to music is heaven. Bear Lake, Jordanelle, Powell, even Utah Lake...can't wait.
- Driving with the windows down and the sun roof open - This is my favorite stress reliever. I love driving in general but add a little country music with my hand out the window, wearing sunglasses as the rays hit my face. Bliss.
- Lemonade Pie - Most do not know what this is but if you like pink lemonade and ice cream you'd like this. It is the best summer snack.
- Hiking - I'm not the best or most avid hiker...but I still really enjoy it! This summer I want to hike to Mt. Timpanogos cuz it has been a million years since I did it last. So I'm excited to be able to get out and hike a little bit, even if it kills me.
- Lake Powell - This could be one of my most favorite places in the world! I have been lucky enough to go every year for 9ish years now! Some of my best memories have been at Bullfrog. Dee and I had our first kiss in Powell and there is only one other place that can match the stars when you're laying on the houseboat in the middle of the lake. It's amazing.
- Bonfires and BBQ's - Nothing beats getting a group of people together and going up the canyon for burgers and s'mores. Ledgemere up Big Cottonwood is one of the best...and not only because that's where I met Dee.
- Sprinklers - Running through sprinklers, kissing in sprinklers, the smell of the sidewalk after the sprinklers have gotten them wet. Love.
- Parks - It sounds super childish but I love swings!! So being able to go swing and then just lay on the grass and talk is a great night in my book.
- Popsicles - Or anything frozen really. Frozen grapes are a new favorite (thanks Sam), but I also make popsicles using grapefruit juice or there is any type of popsicle from the store...you really can't go wrong with them.
- Flip Flops - I HATE SHOES AND SOCKS!!! They make my feet feel suffocated. It's awful. But in the summertime they're free!! I wear flip flops until it is absolutely necessary to trade them in for my snow slippers so my toes don't fall off.
- Camping - SOOO fun! I normally only go for a night or two but camping is just great. I think it's just being able to see the stars, make a campfire, and being with friends that makes camping so much fun.
- Hammock - The hammock in my back yard was the best investment ever. It is a great nap spot because you can lay in the sun to tan or in the shade to just be warm. Get a pillow and it's the ideal spot to sit and read for a little while. At night time you can grab a blanket and a cute boy and go lay out under the stars.
- Night time walks - During the winter at night there isn't anything to do, but when it's warm you can just go for a lovely stroll around the block or walk to a park (to swing of course). Holding hands just walking around for no particular reason is a pretty good night.
- Stars and Clouds - So if you haven't noticed I love looking at the sky. I make wishes on every shooting star and could sit and look at the stars for hours. Laying on the grass and making pictures out of clouds is a simple pleasure. I don't know what it is, but something about just staring into the sky gives me time to think and everything else goes quiet. Summertime skies, both day and night, are beautiful.
Sorry this ended up being a novel about summer. I'm just very excited for it. There are probably a million other amazing things about this season that have been forgotten but that'll do for now. Now that Dee and all my boys are home from their missions, this summer is going to be a blast!! I'm sure there are many surprises in store.
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Typical Saturday...
Spring break is over, it was Ninow's last day in town, and it was finally the weekend. So of course Da CR3W wanted to do something fun, but the day turned out to be quite interesting but I loved it.
All week long it has been a total guy's week. Watching basketball, playing basketball, talking about basketball, eating, and computer games. For a girlfriend, those aren't always the most exciting activities to be a spectator for. But I did it anyway.
So Saturday I got to have a little bit of alone time finally. We went out to lunch and then to see Just Go With It. It was cute AND sort of a chick flick! No explosions or anything! We got home and Dee helped make my blog look cuter and told me he would help make it better if I think of anything later. Him being a computer genius is pretty handy sometimes! After that the guys did come over to watch the Jazz game but it was okay because I like it too. Then we went bowling. Me and 10 guys. The competition with them started the second we walked in the door. Dee and I had the best wager though. Whoever lost had to decide EVERYTHING for the next date night. This was a big thing because neither of us is very decisive. So we started bowling. Most of them were so good! I couldn't believe it! There were strikes and spares left and right. I on the other hand decided to fall and slide halfway down the bowling lane. Those buggers are slippery!! Yeah...that was great. I was beating Dee by like 15 going into the 10th frame. But by some miracle I ended up getting XXX that frame. My first turkey. Not only was it amazing to KILL Dee in our competition but I got the only turkey that game and had a bunch of witnesses. After getting food, we all went to Rally Point A to hang out and play some pool. But it ended up turning into a gab sesh while we all played each other in Words With Friends (best game ever). Dee and I decided to go to his house...which was surrounded by 12 cop cars when we got there. His neighbors house was being held up, so we sat and watched the cops plan and then go in yelling. They had dogs and HUGE guns too. They went through each room looking for the fugitives but only found evidence. It was kind of a let down that they didn't bring someone out in hand cuffs. But Dee was so cute, he didn't want me to leave in case they started shooting each other as I was walking to my car. Not the most likely thing in Cottonwood Heights, but bless his heart. I guess he still has a little Columbus mentality. We sat at the window and watched the action until 2:30 and then I finally went home. I have a fear of people being in my house. So when I got home and saw my closet light was on, of course my first thought was "Oh my gosh, someone is hiding in my closet. The fugitives came and broke into my house and are hiding in my closet." Not the most rational thought...but whatever. So I called Dee to be on the phone when I opened the door just in case. No worries though, no bad guys. We talked for about 10 minutes and then finally went to bed.
That was my Saturday. Just another day in the life. I can never really guess what is going to happen each day but that is what keeps it interesting! And a little random thought...A kiss can fix everything. The phrase "kiss and make up" is 100% accurate. When little kids get hurt you kiss it to make things better. They have a magical healing power no matter what the circumstance. I love kisses.
All week long it has been a total guy's week. Watching basketball, playing basketball, talking about basketball, eating, and computer games. For a girlfriend, those aren't always the most exciting activities to be a spectator for. But I did it anyway.
So Saturday I got to have a little bit of alone time finally. We went out to lunch and then to see Just Go With It. It was cute AND sort of a chick flick! No explosions or anything! We got home and Dee helped make my blog look cuter and told me he would help make it better if I think of anything later. Him being a computer genius is pretty handy sometimes! After that the guys did come over to watch the Jazz game but it was okay because I like it too. Then we went bowling. Me and 10 guys. The competition with them started the second we walked in the door. Dee and I had the best wager though. Whoever lost had to decide EVERYTHING for the next date night. This was a big thing because neither of us is very decisive. So we started bowling. Most of them were so good! I couldn't believe it! There were strikes and spares left and right. I on the other hand decided to fall and slide halfway down the bowling lane. Those buggers are slippery!! Yeah...that was great. I was beating Dee by like 15 going into the 10th frame. But by some miracle I ended up getting XXX that frame. My first turkey. Not only was it amazing to KILL Dee in our competition but I got the only turkey that game and had a bunch of witnesses. After getting food, we all went to Rally Point A to hang out and play some pool. But it ended up turning into a gab sesh while we all played each other in Words With Friends (best game ever). Dee and I decided to go to his house...which was surrounded by 12 cop cars when we got there. His neighbors house was being held up, so we sat and watched the cops plan and then go in yelling. They had dogs and HUGE guns too. They went through each room looking for the fugitives but only found evidence. It was kind of a let down that they didn't bring someone out in hand cuffs. But Dee was so cute, he didn't want me to leave in case they started shooting each other as I was walking to my car. Not the most likely thing in Cottonwood Heights, but bless his heart. I guess he still has a little Columbus mentality. We sat at the window and watched the action until 2:30 and then I finally went home. I have a fear of people being in my house. So when I got home and saw my closet light was on, of course my first thought was "Oh my gosh, someone is hiding in my closet. The fugitives came and broke into my house and are hiding in my closet." Not the most rational thought...but whatever. So I called Dee to be on the phone when I opened the door just in case. No worries though, no bad guys. We talked for about 10 minutes and then finally went to bed.
That was my Saturday. Just another day in the life. I can never really guess what is going to happen each day but that is what keeps it interesting! And a little random thought...A kiss can fix everything. The phrase "kiss and make up" is 100% accurate. When little kids get hurt you kiss it to make things better. They have a magical healing power no matter what the circumstance. I love kisses.
Friday, March 25, 2011
Becoming a blogger?
So apparently I am supposed to blog. No idea what will be in this thing but with my life it is bound to be random and hopefully entertaining!
I had no idea how to start this or what to even write so I'll be stealing some ideas from the darling girls who got me into this! So thank you Melissa for inspiring todays :)
Here is a little about me to get things going:
I am... easily entertained.
I want... to get married.
I have... the best friends ever.
I wish... I was a cowgirl (but hey, i'm working on it).
I hate... ANY and ALL seafood!!
I fear... bad guys being in my house.
I search... for new quotes.
I wonder... what my future holds.
I regret... hurting the people I love most.
I love... Dee.
I ache... when my feelings get hurt.
I always... laugh or at least try to.
I usually... try to take a nap.
I am not... really gifted at anything.
I dance... while i get ready or am in the car.
I sing... in the car no matter what.
I never... put my laundry away.
I sometimes... just need a hug.
I cry... watching movies, reading books, when i'm stressed or tired or laughing. I'm just a cry baby.
I am not always... as okay as I seem.
I lose... my phone every 5 minutes.
I am confused... by life in general sometimes.
I need...to make lists.
I should... be more patient with my family.
I will... graduate eventually
I had no idea how to start this or what to even write so I'll be stealing some ideas from the darling girls who got me into this! So thank you Melissa for inspiring todays :)
Here is a little about me to get things going:
I am... easily entertained.
I want... to get married.
I have... the best friends ever.
I wish... I was a cowgirl (but hey, i'm working on it).
I hate... ANY and ALL seafood!!
I fear... bad guys being in my house.
I search... for new quotes.
I wonder... what my future holds.
I regret... hurting the people I love most.
I love... Dee.
I ache... when my feelings get hurt.
I always... laugh or at least try to.
I usually... try to take a nap.
I am not... really gifted at anything.
I dance... while i get ready or am in the car.
I sing... in the car no matter what.
I never... put my laundry away.
I sometimes... just need a hug.
I cry... watching movies, reading books, when i'm stressed or tired or laughing. I'm just a cry baby.
I am not always... as okay as I seem.
I lose... my phone every 5 minutes.
I am confused... by life in general sometimes.
I need...to make lists.
I should... be more patient with my family.
I will... graduate eventually
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